DST and spring.

There’s good things about Spring coming and one of those is the longer evenings, thanks to DST. I, like everyone else, is walking around this week tired. One of the things about summer are the longer nights and days, which since its quickly approaching, is a good thing. Bbq’ing is certainly easier when you grill later in the evening and can see what you are doing. Although I can wait for the warm nights as last summer we had 97 degree nights thanks to Santa Ana winds, or some summer storms coming up from Baja.

I think the best thing about the summer here are the sunsets. Since we are kinda rural out here, not many buildings obscure the view of the sky. They make the hot days more than worth it.


Cold nights and courses.

It’s been chilly here lately…I believe we haven’t been out of the fifties lately, which is chilly for us. So it’s a good time to get caught up on courses, which is what I’ve been doing. I’m almost finished with Intro to Sociology, as there’s a final for the course on the 26th. The others are thankfully self paced.  There are videos on YouTube which are entitled “Study With Me” which helped me. Check them out!! 🙂


The situation I was in for too damn long has resolved itself as I remembered the truth. I’m grateful that it’s finished as now I can focus solely on healing. My life, therefore, is much quieter as I prefer it that way. Too much drama and stress takes a physical toll on you after awhile and I just need space from all of it. Otherwise things are pretty quiet around here and the loudest thing at the moment is the wind. We have Santa Ana winds blowing through and since it’s late February, they are rather chilly. Winter always hits so late here…its when the rest of the country begins to warm up in preparation for Spring that we get downright cold. We’ve had frost advisories the last few nights and been down to the mid to upper thirties, with the wind blowing. It’s been chilly, suffice to say.


I just looked over at my calendar on the wall and realized I never changed it from Jan. Opps! That’s another thing I need to do soon. Smh we’re almost done with this month and I haven’t switched it yet…can we say distracted?? Sheesh.  I’ve been distracted by drama, coursework and being tired to pay much attention to things like that. Ah well.


I hope every one of my readers had a good Valentines day. 🙂

Online courses.  

I am taking online courses with Coursera,  as they are offering learning paths.  These are multiple courses that take six months to a year to complete. I’m also taking courses with edX and taking intro to Sociology.  Its an intense course with lots of reading.  

 That’s where I’ve been lately.  I hope my readers are doing well.  ☺ I also started using Habitica… an organizational app.  I’ve also been healing as of late,  and focusing more on myself.  I will write more soon.  😊😊😊

New Years Day.

So far is being spent listening to football in the background and recovering from moving furniture and heavy boxes around for hours yesterday. I’m happy with the result and I know I’ll be fine tuning things when I’m not so sore. I’m not one to set resolutions…because they never stick. However, I am grateful to see 2017 gone as it was a harsh year. I’ve learned a lot and am still healing and recovering from the mayhem and chaos.


I’m also trying to  do more coursework rather than let it slide, especially with self paced courses.  Those are great however…..you can forget about them and there’s no set deadlines to finish quizzes, assignments, readings etc so it’s easy to forget about them completely and come back a month or two later. Opps! I moved things around on the desk to accommodate notebooks etc and then let the courses slide. Not a good idea!! It helps with achieving a balance between things and situations in my life.


Last year was mostly spent healing, recovering, moving, settling, disclosing, and figuring out and uncovering the truth about situations that had already occurred. Also mainly playing catch up with my courses, homework, readings and friends I hadn’t talked to in months. I actually had one friend tell me they had been trying to text me since June…I had forgotten to tell them I had changed my number. Opps!!!


I am hoping this year to be more on top of things and not in such a lost place….well maybe that is a resolution after all, eh? 🙂 Have a safe, warm and gentle new years day. 🙂



Coffee, a cold, and warmth.

I’ve caught a cold it seems….though with the weather so dry here and windy from the Santa Ana winds, I’m not surprised. It’s warm during the day but chilly at night as we’re dipping into the 40’s now. I have Vicks and a cup of coffee to assist me at least. 🙂


Okay moving on…so thing’s have been quiet lately…well at least on the human front, thankfully. I was searching for a piece of paper the other day, with a list of all my internet sites I need to remember for my courses. Well, I didn’t find it (I seriously have no idea where it went.) However, I did find all of my old notebooks, paper and binder, and all my old notes that I took for my courses, especially anatomy. I took pretty extensive notes but still couldn’t pass the first assessment, mainly because in the middle of everything, I packed up and moved in one day and never got back to it. I had dropped the class out of frustration but when  I found the notes, that was reversed. Alison has a great “learning pathway” about it, especially the cardiovascular section. Extensive detail and just one of the best, in my opinion, at least.   So I have finally gotten back into my blog at least and my courses. I’ve also been playing Farmville: 2 Country Escape..it’s an addicting game!! But fun nevertheless. I’m just looking to move past the hibernation stage I’ve been in lately, which explains the lack of any posts.


I cannot believe it’s already almost Christmas…time has been flying by so fast!  In just two weeks time then starts the fun of taking down the decorations, which as usual come down a lot quicker than they went up! At least it’s peaceful around here…the neighbors are putting their lights up on their houses and the decorations out. We’ve had ours up since October because I was so tired this year, I began early. It’s looking really pretty around here at night and during the day, the hawks are flying around looking for food, the neighborhood is quiet, and some thin clouds are streaming overhead. I was out in the front yard with the dog and watched the hawks circling overhead, looking for the noon meal. They are such graceful birds and I love watching them circle and fly. 🙂


I absolutely love how peaceful and quiet it is here…….even if I do have to listen to a tv in the background constantly as my mom loves the news. I’m not a fan of it but ah well..it’s still rather peaceful. Until next time, Lisa. 🙂

Healing, recovery, football, and fires.

Its Sunday morning and to most that means church.  To me it means football,  although yes I love the Lord.  ☕⛪💒 I’m still healing and recovering from the abuse I went through, which is why I’m so quiet on here.


I’ve been exhausted these last few months,  as the stress is finally decreasing bit by bit,  I’m realizing how tired I am these days.  That’s the thing about surviving abuse that no one tends to mention.  Your body just collapses as it is detoxing from cortisol and hormones.  The first few months away I tend to just spend sleeping and resting.  That’s why I’m happy for self paced courses,  no worries of impending deadlines.  They also don’t mention the brain fog which accompanies this exhaustion.  It really sucks.  I’ve been NC with my abuser for the last month at least.


Recently I’ve been playing farmville 2,country escape.  It takes my mind off my problems and lets my stress fried brain breathe a bit.  It’s a great game,  although addictive.  😎 Consider yourself warned!  😁 On top of all this I am keeping an eye out for flying decorations and potential fires.  Its so dry that anything can  spark up at any time and with these Santa Ana winds coming through,  that’s exactly what happened.  The fires burning are hard to contain with so much fuel (dry brush/vegetation) and the winds whipping around that they have spread as rapidly as an acre a second.  Yes, you read that right.  Most have lost everything weeks before Christmas and still cannot return home. We need rain desperately here but none is forecast,  and I’m hoping they continue to contain them. These winds are normal this time of year but not for the duration and speed we’ve seen.  If that isn’t bad enough,  another bout of wind is expected by this next weekend.  We can’t seem to catch a break.


The tablet battery is at 22% so I guess I’ll end here for now.  As always   thank you for continued patience during my silences.  I appreciate the loyalty.  😎 Until next time,  Lisa.

It used to be fun…

At one time.  There used to be costumes, music and laughter.  There used to be chases through the house and in the back yard.  There was friendly good natured sparring and joking.  There used to be movie nights and trust.  Popcorn and snacks.  There was dancing,  glitter and light.  There was life and peace, joy and fun.  There was safety and baseball night.  There was sleeping next to me just because.  There was friends and fun.


All that’s a distant memory now. All that’s been replaced with anger, darkness, and words like psychopath.  I miss those days……. I miss innocence and I miss being safe.

Life changes and so does the weather.

Life changes…sometimes it throws you curve balls, other times it just quietly winds around the corner. My life now, is settling down and I’m grateful for this. I’m also exhausted….it’s a deep down kind of tired but it’ll pass eventually. I’m starting to get back to my life quietly, away from all the upheaval.  It’s the only way I can heal, and just moving my furniture around made a huge difference. The weather is also cooler for now at least…and I am hoping it stays that way.  We were roasting lately in the 90’s and I’ve had enough of that heat, thank you very much. October has been brutal with too many hot days.


Regardless, I’m loving that life is winding down and I can relax more and take it easy. This year I’m not looking forward to Halloween, I usually love handing candy out to the kids and teens and seeing the various costumes. This year, I couldn’t care less, I’m too tired. Thanksgiving is approaching fast as well and I have no idea what we are doing this year, besides the bird. Last year we ended up having my friend’s sister and niece over so I had the house decorated and clean. The kitchen table was pulled out and it went well.  Hopefully we know sooner rather than later so we can make arrangements.


Usually decorating is a full time job itself…..lots of stuff to hang and trying to hang it without falling. I have some decorations already up outside of the house for now, as I decided to start early due to being absolutely exhausted this year.

Been Awhile.

I have been busy the last several months since my last post. I have wanted to write then usually get so caught up in something else I forget about the blog for awhile. As always, I appreciate the readers who hang in there with me during the long silences.  I had the past come back in an unwelcome way but now it’s over and I’m much safer. I moved my room around yesterday….switching the couch with the bed and now it looks more cozy and kinda like a small apartment.


I’m also taking new courses! Human geography, astronomy (demanding class) , history, theology, english, political science, literature, and Chinese history.  I’ve been busy lately trying to stay caught up and on track, especially with astronomy which already has us reading three chapters in the first week! I digress though.  I also have a tablet, finally! It’s the BLU (Bold Like Us) Studio II tablet. Okay it’s more of what they call a phablet…a seven inch smartphone.  Therefore, it’s absolutely perfect for taking my courses. It also has lots of nice themes and I can play my favorite games on it to relax.


Life has had it’s ups and downs with healing as well. I don’t believe I blogged about this before when it occurred but a while ago I was battling hacked email accounts (Gmail isn’t secure…they gave a code to get into my account to the hacker just a few months ago..friendly heads up.)  Then I found a friend’s pics on my FB album…without me ever being notified they were added. My fB was hacked…a friend’s fb was hacked to the point that she couldn’t reset it….and before she was hacked she found a rant on there about me, claiming I’m psychotic and then ranting about the shared chat site we met on.


That created quite the firestorm which already was an inferno because I had to deal with a smear campaign being lodged against me, one for six years (which I knew nothing about…don’t ask how that is possible, I’m not really sure) and one more recent than that in which tons of information came out and I was lodged as the hater and the aggressor. It was rough for awhile because some days I couldn’t reset my password fast enough to regain control over my accounts.


I have since deleted those affected and opened a new one which I keep to myself. It really is amazing what can occur but I made out of that alive, but frazzled and with information I’m still pondering to this day.


Regardless, I’m just glad that is over with for now. It made me question a lot of people and to this day, I question the information that was revealed in terms of accuracy. In fact, I question a lot these days..more than I believe anything at face value. But I digress. Regardless, those were some of the bumps in the road I had to face…and now it seems to be smooth sailing finally. School is going alright…just demanding like I’ve said. I’m glad that most of the courses I take are self paced, therefore easier to contend with and not due on some deadline that’s etched in concrete. Astronomy is the most demanding however…..it’s keeping me focused and on my toes.


I will try to add more posts and perhaps add some more recipies as well. I haven’t been baking or cooking with much lately except prepackaged stuff, or burgers on the grill or chicken, mostly due to being so exhausted. I’m dealing also with adrenal fatigue….so it’s really no wonder I’m so tired all the time. Stress, rather chronic stress, shoots too much cortisol and adrenaline into your body and if you cannot find a way to burn it off, it does serious damage to your body, one of which is to deplete your adrenals. Take care of yourselves and enjoy the changing seasons. 🙂