Well it’s peaceful now, finally, although warm again. The two that abused me have been dealt with and are much less of a threat now, to practically non-existent. It’s the healing that needs to take place now, and it’s a slow process healing from narcissistic and psychopathic abuse. I haven’t heard from either of them in awhile so I’m guessing they finally got the hint. Although she still whines and complains that she was “framed” multiple times, it’s a false accusation. Ah well, that’s on her shoulders not mine.
My healing is slow…and we’re still dealing with demons (at times) and souls that travel the astral plane to be here and harrass on their behalf. This type of abuse is insidious and it takes at least 12-24 months to heal from it. Yes you read that right…a total of two years just to settle the chemicals back down to normal, get enough sleep/rest, and get back to where we used to be prior to meeting the monsters.
The damage they do is pretty deep, they try to “become” you and at the same time, erase who you are at the very core of yourself. In most situations you can just pick up and move on, but after these “non-humans” it’s just not that easy. You are left at war with yourself, your thoughts, your body, your dreams…basically anything about you that made you …well, “you.” I am trying to find my way back to who I was before, although this time wiser that these soul less individuals walk amongst us and are pretty prevalent unfortunately. These creatures prey on unsuspecting people and leave you almost lifeless, maybe financially destitute, and bereft of all emotions and life force, so it’s no wonder it takes two years just to rebuild our lives, health and emotional stability & well being. I’m in it for the long haul but I can say this for certain: Never once in my entire life, have I ever been so exhausted, worn out, drained and just simply TIRED.
Chronic stress leads to adrenal fatigue which is an additional burden on us, and an additional issue to deal with. As stated previously, I’ve never been so exhausted as I am having to deal with the aftermath of this. For certain this is not how I pictured my thirties as going. I honestly figured I’d be married with a family at this point in time, rather than battling these two on a astral/spiritual level and demonic entities. It’s no wonder I’m so damn tired all of the time………………..